
It's turned out to be a beautiful, sunny evening. As much as I'd like to entertain you with another of my sociopolitical rants, I'd rather spend this time outside with Victor and Roxie on the end of their leashes.
So today you get a couple from the poetry archive. I wrote these two back in 2007 I think. Don't complain... as an added bonus, I looked through Sunday's Lake Calhoun photos earlier than I wanted to and selected the one above to accompany today's low-budget blog.
A MOMENT
Nothingness walks like an injured fly 
on a window sill. 
Time stretches when we are dying. 
That slow fade is like giving up on him 
despite the ingrained burning of his eyes, 
looking skyward. 
In space above, the nothing is incomprehensible; 
it is everywhere, pulling away from you. 
Yet absent your alien awareness 
there is no focus in darkness. 
The super-massive nothing is the primitive emotion 
of the hobbling fly on the window sill; 
it is powerfully closing in upon itself. 
Even this tiny death is a black hole 
collapsing: 
in the grasping emptiness light is sucked 
through space-time 
and everything is spiralling inward. 
Time stretches when we are dying. 
Maybe death is like this morning's abrupt 
awakening to the crow's scraping voice, 
where our space curves like a tilted tree trunk 
whose offshoot nevertheless rises vertically 
to the warmth of a source light: 
the dying sun. 
Yet even this is beautiful, 
yet difficult to admit 
in my childish stumbling. 
Existence is enough. 
Yet this message is not learned through telling, 
but only through the practice of living 
through the center. 
Receptive to heart-peace 
we find focus in the serenity of an unfulfilled mind: 
not-yearning for things which may never be. 
This is the unlittering of the soul. 
In our journey all is spiral; I strive for the center. 
In the heart's curve I can hear her voice 
disappearing and reappearing 
and 
I wonder 
why so many songs are beautiful. 
In the absence of light 
we must be inured to darkness. 
Where time stretches when we are dying, 
the separation of consciousness ends 
and falls together. 
I thought her lips 
pressed to mine 
was still and pure 
and the source 
of the sun. 
But it was false-reaching 
in those soft moments. 
ANOTHER MOMENT
the other night I
took a look back 
at how my mind worked a few years ago
and I wonder when I'll stop growing
I find that so much has changed
my opinions
my priorities
my goals in life
even my loyalties
I feel like I'm shedding so much old skin
like everyday I get one step closer
to becoming the person I want to be
sometimes I think about
where I was this night maybe 10 years ago
what I was thinking
how I was thinking
and I have to laugh a little
because now I think about where I want to be
on this night
10 years from now
who will I be
and will I be happier
who is next to me
and will I think back
and wonder 
what I was thinking
and how I was thinking
on this night so long ago
I know, I know... I'm no Robert Frost. Be happy I didn't post a video of me playing my guitar and singing.
See you tomorrow.
 
 
Good stuff as always Jonathan.
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